OOM: The Rot in One's Heart
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thesecondjade"Why are you encouraging this?" Lan Qiren's voice cut was clear through the evening air.
"If anything can reach Wei Wuxian and turn him from this path, then it's Wangji." His brother Lan Xichen sounded so calmly certain, as if he knew exactly how things should go. Step one, encourage brother's rivalry. Step two, hope their friendship deepens into a lifelong, abiding thing. Step Three, save Wei Wuxian from himself. What was step four, then? Did Lan Xichen have a plan for after that?
Lan Zhan did not have any answers, and he did not like being part of a plan he couldn't see the clear outcome from. He knew his brother would support him in bringing Wei Wuxian to Cloud Recesses. The weight of everything that Lan Zhan had shared what not been dismissed. But neither would it be acted on -- the only one who could act was Wei Wuxian, and he refused to listen to reason.
Lan Qiren did not see this. All he saw was a rebellious man engaging in dangerous magic, a problem from the time he was fifteen forward. A corrupting influence on one of the Twin Jades. He had no desire to offer succor to anyone. (Had he always been this cold?)
Lan Zhan didn't linger at the entrance to ponder the question. Instead, he opened the doors and both men went still.
"Grandmaster," he said as he went through his bows. "Lan-xiongzhang."
"Wangji, did you come for your assignment?"
"Yes." There was no reason to waste words here.
"Let me see you out, then."
Lan Qiren just turned away after they made their bows and let them go with little fuss. Lan Zhan did not speak; the tension was too much, and if his tongue didn't stay still in his mouth he would easily destroy what peace they had. So instead, he simply took his instructions in silence, and went to leave.
"Wangji," his brother stopped him with his name. "Wangji, you know-- uncle means well. He's afraid, though. Afraid of losing more of us. Cloud Recesses burned. We are weak. He does not speak out of malice."
The weight of the discipline whip in his hands had felt malicious enough, Lan Zhan did not say. He didn't have to, though. Lan Xichen knew how to read his face when no one else could. So he simply put his scroll case in his hand.
"Bring him home," he said.
"I will try," Lan Zhan replied. "One more time."
A short swordflight away he found the thing: chenghuang were normally good spirit beasts, the ghosts of good stallions who still honored their human masters and protected their lands. This one had strayed too close to the Burial Mounds, eaten of the dry dead grass, and now was incurably ill. There would be no swordplay with this beast; archery would take it or it would not be taken.
It was leading him on a merry chase in the gray woods; too close to Burial Mounds, he knew. Too close to the pass that would wend toward one of the side entrances to the Mounds themselves, wood giving way to rocky cliff and scrub.
With his next moment, he sent up a prayer with a blessed arrowed, praying the beast would drop before it came close enough to summon the Yiling laozu from his hiding place.
Despite everything he'd said, he was not sure he wanted to see Wei Wuxian here, to bring him home. At the world between worlds, they pretended everything was normal, that they were almost friends again. Here, that illusion would be rent with a single stamp of a hoof.
The arrow hit it's target; the chenghuang screamed in a voice that sounded like several tangled, a herd of horses howling as one. Though it was wounded, it did not stop in it's gallop. He knocked another arrow, took to the air, and ignored the campfires in the distance. When it struck the beast, it finally tripped and fell, oozing black ichor from every wound.
He approached slowly. It's black coat had lost it's sheen; mottled grey-green rot consumed it, leaving fleshy tumors in it's place. One eye rolled in the head, knowing the end was coming.
"I am sorry," he told the beast, as he drew his sword. "I really am."
"If anything can reach Wei Wuxian and turn him from this path, then it's Wangji." His brother Lan Xichen sounded so calmly certain, as if he knew exactly how things should go. Step one, encourage brother's rivalry. Step two, hope their friendship deepens into a lifelong, abiding thing. Step Three, save Wei Wuxian from himself. What was step four, then? Did Lan Xichen have a plan for after that?
Lan Zhan did not have any answers, and he did not like being part of a plan he couldn't see the clear outcome from. He knew his brother would support him in bringing Wei Wuxian to Cloud Recesses. The weight of everything that Lan Zhan had shared what not been dismissed. But neither would it be acted on -- the only one who could act was Wei Wuxian, and he refused to listen to reason.
Lan Qiren did not see this. All he saw was a rebellious man engaging in dangerous magic, a problem from the time he was fifteen forward. A corrupting influence on one of the Twin Jades. He had no desire to offer succor to anyone. (Had he always been this cold?)
Lan Zhan didn't linger at the entrance to ponder the question. Instead, he opened the doors and both men went still.
"Grandmaster," he said as he went through his bows. "Lan-xiongzhang."
"Wangji, did you come for your assignment?"
"Yes." There was no reason to waste words here.
"Let me see you out, then."
Lan Qiren just turned away after they made their bows and let them go with little fuss. Lan Zhan did not speak; the tension was too much, and if his tongue didn't stay still in his mouth he would easily destroy what peace they had. So instead, he simply took his instructions in silence, and went to leave.
"Wangji," his brother stopped him with his name. "Wangji, you know-- uncle means well. He's afraid, though. Afraid of losing more of us. Cloud Recesses burned. We are weak. He does not speak out of malice."
The weight of the discipline whip in his hands had felt malicious enough, Lan Zhan did not say. He didn't have to, though. Lan Xichen knew how to read his face when no one else could. So he simply put his scroll case in his hand.
"Bring him home," he said.
"I will try," Lan Zhan replied. "One more time."
A short swordflight away he found the thing: chenghuang were normally good spirit beasts, the ghosts of good stallions who still honored their human masters and protected their lands. This one had strayed too close to the Burial Mounds, eaten of the dry dead grass, and now was incurably ill. There would be no swordplay with this beast; archery would take it or it would not be taken.
It was leading him on a merry chase in the gray woods; too close to Burial Mounds, he knew. Too close to the pass that would wend toward one of the side entrances to the Mounds themselves, wood giving way to rocky cliff and scrub.
With his next moment, he sent up a prayer with a blessed arrowed, praying the beast would drop before it came close enough to summon the Yiling laozu from his hiding place.
Despite everything he'd said, he was not sure he wanted to see Wei Wuxian here, to bring him home. At the world between worlds, they pretended everything was normal, that they were almost friends again. Here, that illusion would be rent with a single stamp of a hoof.
The arrow hit it's target; the chenghuang screamed in a voice that sounded like several tangled, a herd of horses howling as one. Though it was wounded, it did not stop in it's gallop. He knocked another arrow, took to the air, and ignored the campfires in the distance. When it struck the beast, it finally tripped and fell, oozing black ichor from every wound.
He approached slowly. It's black coat had lost it's sheen; mottled grey-green rot consumed it, leaving fleshy tumors in it's place. One eye rolled in the head, knowing the end was coming.
"I am sorry," he told the beast, as he drew his sword. "I really am."
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Date: 2020-09-30 02:37 pm (UTC)Suibian had sealed itself in Nightless City. He knew it when he lifted the blade when they retrieved it. Something had gone terribly wrong, he knew it then. Sealing usually was done when a sword had lost it's master - to death, or worse. He just didn't know what 'worse' was Wei Wuxian.
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Date: 2020-09-30 02:47 pm (UTC)"If you're so certain, then why do you bother? If I am so lost to your righteous ways? Or do you just want me kept where you can see me, make sure the corruption isn't spreading?" He dredges up memories of meetings between clan leaders, when pride spoke before kindness, and spits that fire back out.
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Date: 2020-09-30 02:53 pm (UTC)There's a crack in his voice as he asks, "--why would you ask me, confidant, soulmate, to watch you suffer and lose yourself? Is it so impossible to think that I stand here, Lan Zhan, only Lan Zhan, and not Hanguang-jun? That I am here following my heart and not the Codes of Lan?"
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Date: 2020-09-30 05:33 pm (UTC)Turns out, when it's real, it hurts more. Who knew? Shadows cackle deep in his marrow, delighted in his pain.
"I do not ask you to watch. If the view is so poor, turn away." Wei Ying orders, and to his everlasting shame, his mastery over his voice fails, leeching pain into the night air.
He needs to leave before he is undone. He stands, with a thin sort of pride that at least he can still do that without shaking.
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Date: 2020-09-30 05:50 pm (UTC)Maybe it's the Burial Mounds, but the pain is far more keen here. Is it the ghosts, hungry for fresh suffering? Or is it just his heart, creaking the weight of his feelings start to crack it open?
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Date: 2020-09-30 06:46 pm (UTC)Bichen stays sheathed, and Lan Zhan turns. There's a span of seconds where he hopes some voice will sound, will ask him to come back. Anything that will forestall his leap away.
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Date: 2020-09-30 07:36 pm (UTC)He hugs Chenqing to his chest, his hand over his own mouth to keep from making a sound.
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Date: 2020-09-30 07:38 pm (UTC)Something that'll stop him. A reason.
He just needs a reason.
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Date: 2020-09-30 08:08 pm (UTC)When he sees Lan Zhan has looked back, he forces his hand down, forces himself to stand straight and proud. He's fine.
He's always fine.
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Date: 2020-09-30 08:38 pm (UTC)When he arrives, Lan Xichen is near. From his expression, he can already guess that something has transpired.
"Do not send me to Yiling again," Lan Zhan says, brutal in his complete lack of respect. But he's a brother speaking to his brother, not a disciple to his leader. This is a matter only Lan Xichen will understand, not Sect Leader Lan.
Lan Xichen can only nod to Lan Zhan's back, as he retreats to the Jingshi to grieve something that never truly was born, father to a miscarried feeling.
Somewhere, Lan Qiren is watching. Unlike the brothers, he lets satisfaction cross his face. Good. Let the boy understand what that love will bring him. Being cut-sleeve is bad enough, but the Yiling Patriarch? That way lies ruin for all involved. Hopefully, things will resolve themselves now. Lan Zhan will learn his place again, and be his good student. There will be no more foolish risks, no more terrible friendship. Lan Xichen was wrong; Lan Zhan was perfect as he was. He needs no one else.