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Once they had finally put in at a small town and arranged a stay in a barn of all places, the noble Hanguang-jun made sure the terrible Yiling Patriarch was bedded down and not getting up anytime soon.

Once he was certain Wei Ying slept, Lan Zhan went out to get some air, staying near by. There was a creek nearby, and the sound of water over stone was soothing. Everything at Lotus Pier had tested him -- both of them -- and with the knowledge of what had been done... What he had never been told... He needed to be soothed, that was certain.

Guilt was not a feeling he was accustomed to. Lan Zhan lived by the Lan motto of 'Be Righteous,' and that rarely meant there was anything to be guilty about. But now? Now he felt guilty for so many reasons, and this just compounded on the largest one of all.

If he loved Wei Ying so much, how could he have not seen? Not hear him and understand? Lan Zhan had no answers for that, and as his mind circled around another fateful night, and the words that were spoken there, and found his answer to his blindness. He could not see, because he would not see; he had failed the Lan motto completely.

The whip might have flayed the sin with his skin, but he still felt the scars of both move when he hid his face from the full moon in his hands, breathing deeply as he wrangled his emotions. A moment later he stood at attention, trying to focus on standing watch than the tumult ratting his heart around his ribs.

He should have known. Wei Ying all but told him. He should have known.
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With Yi City and Tan Zhou now behind them, Lan Zhan and Wei Ying had returned to Cloud Recesses and the Jingshi. Some layout changes had to be made to fit a second bed, but it could be done. Wei Ying snuck out regularly, and though Lan Zhan worried, he could not be upset. This was a hard time for them both.

Yi City had showed them both what they had been, and what they had lost in sharp relief: when Song Lan had left with the shattered soul of his cultivation partner tucked into his robe and Frostwork strapped to his back, Lan Zhan could not help but see himself. The walking dead, carrying the weight of two men on his back.

I will bear it, he had said -- of grief, of punishment, of all the things between. He'd meant it, too. Song Lan would never rest, and unlike him, never hope to see his beloved again.

Wei Ying had been acting strangely since Tan Zhou, though, and Lan Zhan thought it best to give him space to sort some things out for himself. He wasn't sure what had happened in Tan Zhou, but he was both lighter hearted and troubled in turns. Perhaps Lan Xichen had given him a great deal to think about, or perhaps the Curse marks have bothered him further. Time kept ticking onward, and neither of them could slow or stem its tide.

While Wei Ying was out again, Lan Zhan found himself an afternoon among the rabbits, stroking soft ears as he made sure the scraps from the Lan kitchens made it to the spot outside their burrow. As they munched on ribs of bok choy and radish greens, he tried to find his own island of calm among them, putting thoughts of Song Lan aside and simply trying to find a meditative space in this daily ritual.
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It was maddening to know that when Wei Ying slept in his bed, Lan Zhan could not tell him what lay beneath it. The floorboards had been moved, a space made, warded and protected. He had kept the Yiling Patriarch's notes besides a carefully kept plush kangaroo, a book of Paris with Wei Ying's art within, and of course, the thing that had kept him from ever forgetting Wei Ying's face: the photograph from Max Caufield.

He had watched Wei Ying pack his things and walk straight past the bed that held the trove of longing and grief, Lan Zhan told himself to be careful: it was not yet safe to want, again, to see and wish to hold. Years had dulled the ache, but sometimes the point of it still found the softest parts of him and jabbed deep.

Lan Zhan boxed it up with his treasures and told it: Not now. Maybe not ever. Do not want again what is never to be. Just be satisfied with what you have. Nothing has changed. He lives and breathes, but he does not want the same things you do. He packed up the feelings that had never left, like his treasures, and placed it inside the smallest box within his heart. There was too much at stake to feed hope.

Let it starve, Lan Zhan. he told himself. Let it starve. Your heart has grown used to unslaked thirst, unfed hungers. To give it scraps would only make it worse.
thesecondjade: (Terror by Sword)
The years were trickling onward and Lan Zhan found himself adrift. His son was now living among the junior disciples, Lan Zhan could carry his sword once more, and Gusu seemed less welcoming than ever.

The rift between himself and his clan seemed unbridgeable. It was a span so wide and so deep that any effort would simply lead to the last of their relationship teetering on the edge and falling into the abyss of resentment that seethed below. He loved his brother, that was true, but his blanket disdain for the generations before him was well known. There were whispers that Hanguang-Jun had learned nothing from the discipline whip, but that was untrue. He'd learned many lessons, the chief of which was the question everything he had been taught, and question everyone who had taught him. It made for difficult living.

Soon, he began to earn a reputation. Not only was he Hanguang-Jun, Light Bearing Lord, but he was also soon called 'He Who Goes Where the Chaos Is.' His willingness to plunge into dangerous situations, to help whoever needed helping regardless of means spread like wildfire. He had no more time for Cultivation Conferences, he had no more time for Sect policies. He would keep his promise for both himself and Wei Ying: to protect the weak and live without regret.

The latter half of that vow was the hardest to keep. Regret crept up on him like a thief in the night, slipping in the window under the cover of darkness and robbing him of his breath at night. His dreams were wore outside Cloud Recesses, plaguing him whenever he came too close to a place anchored to a memory with Wei Ying as a central part of it.

Then he found himself in Qishan. With the Wen gone, a few brave villagers from Qinghe had pushed into the region, taking over abandoned farmland, only to find they had to call for Cultivators to help cleanse the rage and ghosts from the land. If there was any call that he should have avoided -- it was this one. Big the daring settlers expanding from Qinghe. They should not have been so brazen to test the lands of Qishan.

One of the villages had been a outpost for the Wen Sect, and resentment and despair had built. The Wen had long ago abandoned the practice of sealing their disciples against becoming restless ghosts, and so there were plenty of them to eliminate. The other two steps were simply not working, and so Lan Zhan entered into battle with their enemies a second time. Sometimes he wondered if the ghosts that were purged by his spiritual power was falling to him for a second time. He did not, as a rule, remember the faces of the Wen that he slew in battle. They did not linger in his thoughts, laughing in the background of his mind as Wei Ying did.

The nightmares were intense in Qishan. There were many Wei Ying memories, some of them terrible, that vied to dominate his nights, and he frequently awoke, tormented by memories he could not deny. Wei Ying howled in his mind, demanding -- something. Mocking, angry, lost.

Then he found the brand. It was among the wreckage of the Sect outpost, still in excellent condition after all these years. He took it from the ravaged outpost, and took it away with him in a wild, impulsive moment. He went back to the closest village. There he purchased wine, and vanished into the night.

He could have made it to a larger city or even a town, but he had no desire. He found another abandoned village and took over one building for his over night shelter, stoked a fire in the hearth, and then unpacked both his wine and the brand.

Lan Zhan took his first sip of wine and let the heat course through him. It burned down his throat, warmed his belly in a way that fire didn't. Then it spread to his limbs until he felt them go languid and loose. Would this help him conquer nightmares? Wei Ying seemed merry whenever he drank. How did he feel when the liquor set him to burning from the inside out?

Wei Ying's experiences eluded him. Lan Zhan had lived such a sheltered life, free of most of the pain that his beloved had endured, the joys that he had embraced. So he sat there, sipping his wine and staring into the fire, wondering what spicy food tasted like, what made Emperor's Smile the lord of all wines, what about radishes were just so bad.

A some point, sips turned into long drinks, and long drinks led to fumbling hands, pulling his clothing askew as the heat that sometimes took him when dreams took strange, intimate dreams that were doubly tormenting for knowing that Wei Ying had never returned those feelings, never knew the way that Lan Zhan wanted to put his hands on him.

As he ran his hand over his own chest, he thought of Wei Ying's scar, marring perfect skin. The Wen brand all but fell out of his Qiankun sleeve after that, and found it's way into the fire as some half-formed idea began to take hold. The brand was something else that Wei Ying had felt that Lan Zhan had no understanding of. But this was something concrete, something he could take and recreate. This is a thing he could take action on.

When it was hot enough, he did not hesitate. He took one glance at the blazing Wen sun, glowing bright after it's time in the fire, and took it by its handle. Never meant to be used on one' self, the situation was awkward -- he measured, moved, measured again, trying not to burn his hands in the process, till the heat of the brand was making him sweat.

Frustrated, Lan Zhan plunged ahead before he could lose his nerve, and the loose-limbed warmth that had kept him was suddenly eclipsed by the flames of the Wen Sun burning into his breast. He did not scream - the sound he made was an an animal sound of pain, low and and anguished, and those blazing seconds of burning were some of the longest of his life. They were beaten only by the horrible seconds of watching Wei Ying plunge backward into the ring smoke from the lava vents that surrounded the Nightless City. He had lived years in those terrible moments, leaning over the stone with one hand extended. The burn was nothing compared to those terrible seconds.

When he came too hours later, he ached from drink and injury. He was only vaguely aware of why he might hurt, memory fuzzy after so much wine and getting so easily drunk. The fire had gone cold, he was half dressed, and there was a new scar to go with the rest. He carefully coaxed his core into action, letting energy seep to the wounds, speeding their healing. But he did not heal them completely. He let the brand rest there, and made his way from Qishan come morning.

The next time he he was plagued with nightmares and woke, he touched the burning sun in the dark. Then he reached for his guqin.

The ebony Wangji, the guqin that bore his name, had been restrung only once it came time to teach Lan Sizhui. Lan Zhan could barely sit up for hours at a time, regaining his movement in inches when he had painstakiningly restrung the instrument and attuned himself to it again. His long-fingered hands had suffered no damage from the whip, so they were as nimble as ever. He knew the notes of Inquiry by heart, and summoned the spirits to him with ease. Each chord sounded out -- Do you know of Wei Ying?

The spirits answered in the negative.

Bear me a message; should Wei Ying cross your path in the next world, tell him I did my best to understand how he must've felt, to carry joy and pain in equal measure. It will not be enough, but I tried.

The spirits answered in an affirmative.

Lan Zhan had to be satisfied. He would return to Cloud Recesses, speak of nothing which transpired over the last few weeks, and do his best to keep going. A-Yuan needed him to never stop striving for the next day, and the day after that. He was his reason to live, that son of Wei Ying's, the blessing that had been left for him to rear and care for.

Maybe he could better understand why Wei Ying was Wei Ying, if he took care if people with the same fervor that his beloved did. But he could not do it at the cost of his own life and health. Too many people depended on him. He had to go where the chaos was, Wei Ying in his heart and a reminder seared into his flesh, and fight for them both.
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Pain rose and ebbed like the tide, and Lan Zhan was still no closer to the shore of consciousness than he'd been hours ago.

The last lash he'd been able to count, staring at a middle point between this uncle's towering form and the floor, was seventeen. At the fifth, he'd felt his vision began to blur, and by twelve he'd lost the strength kneel upright, falling forwards to put weight he couldn't bear on his legs on to his arms.

Seventeen had come with a distraction. His brother's voice, lifted in protest. Finally, he came. Finally, he argued. Finally, he pleaded clemency and mercy. Finally, he acted like they were family instead of like Sect. Wasn't this enough, he asked - always seeking compromise, even where there could be none. Where a stand meant more.

Too little too late; his uncle repudiated Lan Xichen. No one is above the rules: not even the Twin Jades of Lan. But Lan Zhan had done the same, and damned Wei Wuxian to fall. He should have done differently. He should have stood beside him.

After that it was just pain. Voices were a dull roll in the background. He could only hear the crack of the whip and his own breathing. Then, there was a gap. It stretched onward. Vibrations echoed through the floor as those who had taken turns weilding the whip.

Lan Zhan found the strength to push himself up, to get his brow off the cold, wet planks beneath him. Finaly, there were hands o him, grabbing his arms. They held him still, and then they hold him up. There is an ongoing argument -- but then there is nothing. He has only one thought: Survive. He has to, not for Lan Xichen's request, but for A-Yuan.

It is two weeks later when Lan Zhan has a semi-coherent thought again, and again, it is about A-Yuan. He must retrieve him. To do that, he must get rid of the woman -- the healer -- sitting next to his bed, grinding medicine for salve.

"My brother," he says, and she drops her mortar and pestle, sucking in a hard breath. "Bring me my brother."

She blurts an affirmative, and then breaks Rule 71: No running in Cloud Recesses.

That's when Lan Zhan begins the labor of getting himself upright in his own bed. His vision whites out once, twice, but an indeterminable amount of time later, he is upright. Predictably, he is naked. The whip had crossed him from back to buttocks as it bend and finally broke him down.

The strength to rise comes at a high cost. Pain is ever present, sizzling in his skin with every breath, bursting into white-hot agony when he moves wrong. But move he must, pulling one of his white winter robes and pulling it one only to abandon it. His skin is bandaged, but his shoulders can barely stand the weight of it. He picks a lighter robe, and then endures the mantle of stinging pain here it rests on his shoulders.

The first halting footsteps Lan Zhan takes are as unsteady as a fawn, but he still takes them. One after the other. Step after step, plank after plan, until his feet touch the gravel of the courtyard. Eventually it gives way to rough mountain grasses against his feet, one of the few places he does not hurt.

This is the way he makes it to the copse of bamboo behind the jingshi. It stays chill, but as the trees begin to change, he knows he is being welcomed to where needs to be. The unnatural animals of the wood sense blood, though-- and they dog his steps. They do not deter him from his path, and he keeps walking all the way to the heather.

There, he drops, with the bar in sight, warm light shining out the back windows like salvation.
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Lan Zhan was under house arrest.

The jingshi is his again -- he is imprisoned there, his jade charm removed. The Elders believe he cannot escape the wards, and honestly, he doesn't care to. He doesn't need to. He knows at any time, he could leave. Anytime, he could ask. The Bar answered once, and the Bar will do so again. It will not leave A-Yuan fatherless. It knows too much is at stake.

He tends to his own wounds like the elders convene, puts all of his old clothing with it's bright blues and crisp, expensive whites into the brazier and pulls out his thin, mourning whites. He is dressed for a funeral. Potentially his own, he knows, but... if that is it, so be it. He has only one future he must secure now, and it is not his own.

Lan Zhan makes his last preparations. He takes his guqin and cuts its strings, a message to all that will see it. The cord is cut between him and Wei Wuxian, and this guqin that bore his same name will never sing again. Then he traces his most potent wards, infusing them with all the energy he can spare and still be functional. No one will find his cache of treasures, hidden beneath the jingshi floorboards. No one would bother to look, anyway. No one suspects Lan Zhan of sentimentality.

Then he waits. Lan Xichen will come to him when it is time. They will try to take his pride, may yet take his life, but there is only one thing that matters now: the child in need. So he waits, kneeling before the open doors of the jingshi in silence, while guards are posted at the gates to his courtyard.
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Word reached the Lan eventually. It was chaos and confusion, accounts of the death of Jin Zixuan and the ambush by Jin Zixun. It was unclear what had occured, though reports of the attack by the Jin cousin and the death of both Jin Zixuan and Jin Zixun at the hands of the Ghost General were quickly verified.

Lan Zhan felt the leash around his throat tighten. Suddenly, Lan Qiren needed him everywhere, keeping him from doing anything foolish. Every minute was accounted for, every hour laden with work. It was only when a messenger arrived and whispered that all of the remaining Wen had been slaughtered like beasts, with Wen Ning and Wen Qing put to the torch that Lan Zhan broke away, rules be damned.

There was no stopping him them. Lan Zhan was on his sword, and he did not step off it until he was before the mouth of the Demon Subdue Cave. The wards were still in place -- but he could feel them creaking under the resentful energy that battered the tiny, now empty, village.

"Wei Ying! Wei Ying!" Lan Zhan's calls echoed against unyielding stone, and there was no one to answer them.

Then there was the softest sob. It wasn't from Lan Zhan's lungs, though he felt like screaming. It came from a place turned by the blood pool, and when he walked around the lip of it he found the child who had made it.

A-Yuan was curled into a limp ball, sheened with sweat and unconscious. Lan Zhan knelt down, gathering him up. Surely, the Wen must've left him intentionally-- refusing to doom a child, as they knew their surrender would end in their deaths. Perhaps as an anchor for Wei Ying. But-- Wei Ying wasn't there. Was he so far gone that he would abandon a child to death?

Lan Zhan refused to believe it. Wei Ying must be tormented beyond belief, to somehow not know A-Yuan was hidden here. He would never, ever leave an innocent like this -- even at the height of his rage, he would prioritize a child.

(Unless you are wrong, his inner voice spoke, sounding like Lan Xichen. You said yourself, something was wrong with his Cultivation.)

It did not matter. He needed help, and fast. The child was too delicate to take by sword to Cloud Recesses, and Wei Ying couldn't have been gone long. He was needed at two places at once, and neither could be reached fast enough to matter in his current state, or safe enough to travel to with a child in arms.

Settling the boy down on the stone bed where Wei Ying had laid his head to rest, Lan Zhan went to one wall and began to take things from his sleeves; a tin of cookies, a bar napkin, the single photo of Wei Wuxian he carried with him. Treasures from another time and place.

He set them all before the wall as he built his array. With the right items, you could ask for a door. You could beg for a door. Things of that waystop-world, that tied him to a place beyond places. Milliways would answer. Milliways was a place of help, the restful hearth after a long journey.

There was an array for a door. An array for travel. Even the array for teleportation, all flung at the wall, hoping beyond hope it would give him a door. Nothing came.

"Please!" he finally gave in and shouted. If magic would not do it, when he was not too proud to beg. Hands to the wall, he pressed himself to it, brow to the cold stone. Then, he asked once more, voice soft: "Please. If not for me, than for the boy. Please."

There was a click and a grinding of stone. Lan Zhan stepped back as the door, etching itself into the black rock, began to take shape. He rushed back to grab A-Yuan, sweeping his things into his sleeve as he passed them, plunging into the warmth of the bar.

This restful hearth was here for him, once more.
thesecondjade: (Dramatic Arrival)
Once he was through the wood, trees gave way to thick bamboo stalks, and then to the coolness of Cloud Recesses. It was the ideal return, honestly; he could quickly strip and soak himself to regain his control. With the freezing waters keeping him from feeling hot shame breathing against his neck, he can find calm. It's hard to focus on literally anything except one's body when one is chest deep in icy waters.

It was only after he had forced himself into a state of calm that he felt like he was fully back in control. Wei Ying knew now: that was ultimately meanginessly. Lan Zhan never expected him to ever look his way. What would he do? Be the qidi to Lan Zhan's qixiong? Foolishness. Wei Ying asked for his friendship with one hand and spurned it with another. There was something deeply wrong with him, besides.

Something that Lan Zhan cannot mend. Hopelessness settles in his belly like ice, but it's hard to care when the rest of him is already so very cold.

Eventually, he dried himself off and dressed, picking his way up the hill a bit to seat himself among the rabbits.

"Have a word with Tu'er Shen, and ask him to spare me some kindness," he said to one rabbit, stroking it's ears. "Make Wei Ying forget me, and let my heart go."

The rabbit just nibbled on grass from his hand, and both sat in silence as the sun chased the western horizon.
thesecondjade: (Sheathed Bichen)
"Why are you encouraging this?" Lan Qiren's voice cut was clear through the evening air.

"If anything can reach Wei Wuxian and turn him from this path, then it's Wangji." His brother Lan Xichen sounded so calmly certain, as if he knew exactly how things should go. Step one, encourage brother's rivalry. Step two, hope their friendship deepens into a lifelong, abiding thing. Step Three, save Wei Wuxian from himself. What was step four, then? Did Lan Xichen have a plan for after that?

Lan Zhan did not have any answers, and he did not like being part of a plan he couldn't see the clear outcome from. He knew his brother would support him in bringing Wei Wuxian to Cloud Recesses. The weight of everything that Lan Zhan had shared what not been dismissed. But neither would it be acted on -- the only one who could act was Wei Wuxian, and he refused to listen to reason.

Lan Qiren did not see this. All he saw was a rebellious man engaging in dangerous magic, a problem from the time he was fifteen forward. A corrupting influence on one of the Twin Jades. He had no desire to offer succor to anyone. (Had he always been this cold?)

Lan Zhan didn't linger at the entrance to ponder the question. Instead, he opened the doors and both men went still.

"Grandmaster," he said as he went through his bows. "Lan-xiongzhang."

"Wangji, did you come for your assignment?"

"Yes." There was no reason to waste words here.

"Let me see you out, then."

Lan Qiren just turned away after they made their bows and let them go with little fuss. Lan Zhan did not speak; the tension was too much, and if his tongue didn't stay still in his mouth he would easily destroy what peace they had. So instead, he simply took his instructions in silence, and went to leave.

"Wangji," his brother stopped him with his name. "Wangji, you know-- uncle means well. He's afraid, though. Afraid of losing more of us. Cloud Recesses burned. We are weak. He does not speak out of malice."

The weight of the discipline whip in his hands had felt malicious enough, Lan Zhan did not say. He didn't have to, though. Lan Xichen knew how to read his face when no one else could. So he simply put his scroll case in his hand.

"Bring him home," he said.

"I will try," Lan Zhan replied. "One more time."

A short swordflight away he found the thing: chenghuang were normally good spirit beasts, the ghosts of good stallions who still honored their human masters and protected their lands. This one had strayed too close to the Burial Mounds, eaten of the dry dead grass, and now was incurably ill. There would be no swordplay with this beast; archery would take it or it would not be taken.

It was leading him on a merry chase in the gray woods; too close to Burial Mounds, he knew. Too close to the pass that would wend toward one of the side entrances to the Mounds themselves, wood giving way to rocky cliff and scrub.

With his next moment, he sent up a prayer with a blessed arrowed, praying the beast would drop before it came close enough to summon the Yiling laozu from his hiding place.

Despite everything he'd said, he was not sure he wanted to see Wei Wuxian here, to bring him home. At the world between worlds, they pretended everything was normal, that they were almost friends again. Here, that illusion would be rent with a single stamp of a hoof.

The arrow hit it's target; the chenghuang screamed in a voice that sounded like several tangled, a herd of horses howling as one. Though it was wounded, it did not stop in it's gallop. He knocked another arrow, took to the air, and ignored the campfires in the distance. When it struck the beast, it finally tripped and fell, oozing black ichor from every wound.

He approached slowly. It's black coat had lost it's sheen; mottled grey-green rot consumed it, leaving fleshy tumors in it's place. One eye rolled in the head, knowing the end was coming.

"I am sorry," he told the beast, as he drew his sword. "I really am."
thesecondjade: (Snowfall in Cloud Recesses)
Since the rebuilding of Cloud Recesses, Lan Zhan has felt like the world was just one step from normal. It was not simply because things had changed. While it was still Cloud Recesses, parts of it was stranger to him now. While the Jingshi has been spared destruction, when he saw freshly planted trees instead of the mature pines that had been there on his way to the main compound, he knew things were not as they had been. When he counted the fish in the pond and found they were three short than before, it was all wrong.

The library was the worst. Having spent long hours here from the time he could read to the man he was becoming now, it's change were the most obvious. The sanctum he sheltered in had been grossly violated. Filthy Wen hands had ripped and destroyed, put less important texts to the torch. The smell of ash still permeated the place, smoke clinging to every surface.

Lan Zhan hated it. He could not deny that it drove him harder, though -- the ever present reminder that of the transience of all things was a sliver in his heart next to the one named for Wei Wuxian.

Unwilling to pick apart the whys and wherefores of the feeling, Lan Zhan feared that Wei Wuxian would become like the library. Resentful energy charred the flesh and seared the soul, causing weakness of body and spirit. He did not want to see Wei Wuxian become a stranger, hollowed out and left bereft of comfort he was to Lan Zhan.

Lan did not linger on why Wei Wuxian was a comfort; one should think that Wei Wuxian was a storm that tosses boats on the cove of Lotus Pier hither and thither, but no. No, he was a river, yes, but one that spurred Lan Zhan on a course. He made Lan Zhan... better.

"Are you so deep in your research that you have not heard me, Wangji?"

Lan Zhan looked up so quickly he cricked his neck, but the pain never reached his thick face. "My apologies, Lan-xiongzhang."

His elder brother inclined his head a little, before he stepped inside, sliding the door to the library closed behind him. "I've received a request for aid, Wangji. I should like you to tend to it."

Lan Zhan knew brotherly interference when he heard it. All the same, he set his quill aside and listened. "What aid is needed?"

"A jiufeng has visited a village between Gusu and Yunmeng. As Yunmeng is rebuilding, they have reached out to us for assistance in dispatching the beast," Lan Xichen said.

"I'll do it," Lan Wangji. Anything to strip Jiang Wanyin of a single potential moment of glory.

His brother let a fleeting smirk touch his lips before it faded. He'd seen the pettiness. Banked on it, perhaps.

"It will be good of you to get out of the library," he said, glancing around as if he did not already know why Lan Zhan was studying here, day in and day out. "Some skills can only be honed with use."

"You are correct." Lan Zhan set his studies aside and swiftly tidied his desk. He would return -- a jiufeng was not a difficult creature to contain, if you had the ability to catch it. If left to run rampant, it would eat children, rending them apart with nine terrible beaks digging into soft, innocent flesh. "I will prepare at once."

"Thank you, Wangji," Lan Xichen said. "Come to me when you're ready."
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What is the 52nd rule of the Gusu Lan?

Lan Zhan knew the answer. It was one of the most basic precepts out of the three thousand that were etched across the great walls of Cloud Recesses. You did not show mercy to monsters, you fulfilled the clan motto of Be Righteous. Like resentful energy strikes at the the hearts of those who wield it, disrupting their temperment, so too did evil people corrupt the righteous. Influence was influence, whether it was power for cultivation or the sly words of a friend's voice in one's ear.

Do not befriend evil.

As he knelt straight on his knees, with rigid back and arms locked before him, Lan Zhan pondered what made man evil. He held the traditional Gusu Lan discipline whip in his hands, outstretched, as if offering it to his uncle, waiting for the Grandmaster Lan to free him from his punishment.

He knew the whip for it for what it was: a warning. That they were concerned he was going astray, led by the wicked Yiling Patriarch, Wei Wuxian. He did not need the promise spelled out in its weight against his palms. If you walk this road with him, you will not be spared discipline. The Second Jade of Lan will bleed, same as any other Lan who would dare violate one of the most closely held precepts of the Gusu Lan.

I'll follow my single plank bridge to its dark end!

It had been the last thing that he had heard from the lips of Wei Wuxian himself, even if he was not speaking to Lan Zhan specifically. He was, perhaps, reassuring himself. That his path was narrow, but it was his to walk and he had chosen it, as he carried the child A-Yuan away with him to their shabby home and their near-barren land. Back to where a fierce corpse served tea and made medicine alongside his sister.

Leave the broad, crowded road for other people!

The hours passed as Lan Zhan contemplated the events of the day in relation to the 52nd rule. Could a man that kind to children be evil? Jin Guangshan was good to his legitimate son, but a monster to those he sired satiating his yawning appetite for young women. Was he evil? He saw some people as objects, did that not make him evil? Lan Xichen would still break bread with him, was not that befriending evil? Yet, Wei Wuxian had gone against this 'righteous' Sect Leader and saved the lives of the last of the Dafan Wen. How could Wei Wuxian be evil, when he acted to preserve life instead of end it? Wei Wuxian did not see the remnants of the Dafan Wen as objects, when clearly, they were little better than cattle to the Lanling Jin.

What is black, and what is white?

Wei Ying had asked Lan Zhan about absolutes before he had ridden away in his first act of defiance against the Great Sects. Did this not obligate him to give Wei Ying his friendship, still as steadfast as the mountains of Gusu, and let him know that there was someone who was still ready to help him should he finally turn away from wicked cultivation? That was not befriending evil; Wei Ying had been his friend for years now. He was troubled, certainly, and something was wrong with his cultivation -- but he was not evil. No one watched over a hardscrabble village like he did and be utterly corrupted.

You may leave now.

The thoughts had not resolved themselves, even as night came and Lan Zhan was relieved of his punishment. The discipline whip returned to its place in the hall, a reminder for all who would trespass against righteousness. He was cold and damp, and his legs ached. Despite all the creaks and complaints of his flesh, his mind still ran circles, again and again. Maybe his bright, easy path was not so broad. Perhaps it was not so bright or easy, either.

There were too many questions, and not enough answers. He would go to the jingshi, and meditate on it there before resting. Maybe then, he would come to a suitable answer for what being Wei Ying's friend really meant, for Lan Zhan himself and for the Gusu Lan.
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